Unfortunately I am not that person. Not the man he once loved. She had pain of love is not that person. Yin and yang, the two separated and they are not that person. I can not give what they want continuity and rebirth.
That frame is set in front of the marble funerary, belonging to a fall in the 19-year-old's life. She is the daughter of Professor Wang is made Leahy's girlfriend, is that they think with my likeness hilarious woman.
A
Some people first met, had already foreseen must enter each other's lives, no matter in what form what kind of attitude.
Leahy made first met, I would so identified.
He broke into the classroom a little rough, since the main entrance. He passed me, I feel looking back, not his illness too fast and the wind that ruffles my broken hair makes me confused, but he also knew looking back.
Sure enough, do not tell me his head, and the unbridled force stared me.
So a look back, with amber depressed pupil, has a straight nose, with a stubborn chin, has abnormal white skin. So many, over the commotion surrounding bursts of crushing, and a cold green fluorescent color, exceptionally strong branded in my mind was rolling.
Two
Leahy made like him! Some Wuran a finger, pointing to Edward, cried. Edward is the "Twilight Twilight" actor.
In fact, when I see in the movies Edward, no reason my heart startled. Yes, how similar face, look, mannerisms. To me, it is too familiar scene, but I do not like Isabella. I what to ordinary, not bright radiance, no bright colors. Leahy made may actually won a record back.
Far more than a look back.
That day, it is a public lesson, I set in the hat suddenly being removable from behind. I feel offended, HUO Di turned his head and whispered shouted at the same time, what are you doing! Think that Leahy words! He sat behind me, the location a little bit taller than me, even though he was slightly stooped, bow forward, I still had raised his head and looking at him. I'm surprised to see their stricken faces locked in his amber eyes, as the first time, he is still with wanton eyes stare me.
Why do you wear a hat when a hot day? He made a sudden recovery has been explored in my face, eyes, mouth hidden meaning with ridicule asked, laughing. His Cantonese Mandarin an awkward, uncomfortable for him to listen to people.
With thee! I am a bit angry road. Throws remark but after a little regret, a rare opportunity for dialogue, but was intended to erase their evil.
That September, osmanthus steaming weather, especially hot. But I still wearing hooded pullover sweater class, still put on a hat as usual, still feel paranoid walking through public courses class classrooms. Yes, I'm just waiting for this gesture from behind a pair of outstretched hands lift my hat. Unfortunately, no. Leahy words did not occur again.
Three
I always learned from the population around his various messages, such as he is our students in a school Hong Kong, Macao and Taiwan, such as his strike fencing well, such as his frequent and accessible by a female professor. They said that female professors born too obsequiousness. I met once, in the school museum open day, Leahy words and a thin woman standing in an ancient fossils before, whispered murmur. I went to call out to him, but they both turned to look at me, I feel their eyes fell on her. She does not enchanting, does have a somewhat frost gas. Leahy made for us to be introduced, this is the Department of Chinese Professor Wang Shaowei, this is Fang Zitian students.
She and Leahy made a similar place, I mean Man's eyes. This is the end of her natural calm person, but I clearly glimpse inexplicable trembling in her whole person, on seeing me afterwards.
I look so terrible you have? I put my face when necessary, and to express their discontent. She later distinguished face, the face of the piece of bizarre fossils recovered indifferent to normal.
Then he and the professor has not been heard often in pairs gossip. But that is an ordinary student academic exchanges and nothing else.
Four
Leahy words seldom come on the public course. I also secretly went to his courses on trying to capture him, but is not he be diligent than I am skipping.
Spends his days in the drama club and classrooms and dormitories, and remembered because someone has stumbled dreamer. I will read the wrong lines, I will wrong classroom, I'd midnight insomnia. Time seems to stand still, the pointer seems able to get to the moment I met someone. I always insist on wearing that sweater, hovering in the entire heat reclaim October.
Unexpected met him in late October, at the school canteen.
Canteen than usual that day, but no one vacancy. Holding plate, hesitated between deterred, I heard someone call my name beside, Fang Zaitian. Heard around, that pale face look bright to pan my eyes fixed. Leahy is made. He put aside the space books move away and motioned me to sit down. Sit side by side with his body chilly atmosphere, very strong, canteen chaos can not cover up the smell, hit me, I thought October autumn hit.
He said I find that you really like to wear a hat, hot day when you're not hot? Is this now popular styling? Just at that mouth hung Nama vaguely familiar ridicule meaning.
He certainly did not know I'm wearing a hat for him, and I do not know this strange behavior is because he is born.
I am a little frustrated and a little Xingran said I was only into the role only. Our drama club is doing the play, I play a witch riding a broom. You know, there are wearing witches hat black cloak. He stared at me in the eyes so I feel I must be very funny, I bitterly folded hand gestures, sickly chops two food.
Perhaps you understand the drama for a little help. He did not know where to come up with a thick book, to me. Cover says "Shahram witch." Handed my hand, he also asked me to take care of, he never borrowed this book. I nodded firmly, as unexpected to get this "borrowed" the rare treatment heart feel pleased. I say you'll see us in the New Year evening performances drama, right? To my surprise, he actually said he was not interested in school drama. And to his surprise, I have actually revealed he had stayed in the old school drama club history. He quickly glanced at me, slightly surprised. I hastened to explain, listen to seniors in the community said. Obviously because he was into the drama club's why clumsy whitewash? He knew he was haunted by fear of self-esteem like him?
He lightly, long before the incident, did not play any drama.
It did turn into? Ask again.
He became silent. As paradoxical dark silence, the total disturbing and suspicion. I suddenly think of that gas with Frost Professor Wang. Could it be because of her? Because she also likes drama? I have never bothered the people around them vague speculation relationship by is never believe. Just realize that they are no exception, and will also guess that layer to the relationship.
In the end he never said why did the opening speech will be carried out drama club. They hurried down the cutlery and I picked up the book say goodbye. I put aside modesty, loudly toward his retreating straight spine questioning, you will come to see my show can?
Others have to go back, in addition to his outside.
Away with him all the way down my eyes, I saw her. That will never look no waves Professor Wang. He ignored me a warm skim original is because her. Perhaps I have been exploring their eyes Yousi sinister light, burning into someone's nerve. Professor Wang disappeared from the moment the door suddenly look back, I do not hurriedly eyes open, like trying to hide.
Five
He ultimately did not come to my show. Well, I remember this role each gestures, no place can carry it.
The fact that at that time I did not play the role of the witch.
After reading the script, I insisted on playing witch requirements, chasing behind the president, as head of stubborn cub. Early first he refused, but fool me, witch on a loved one know how to speak the kind of agony affection, you can get a thorough understanding it?
How can I realize impervious?
I took this role is ultimately fight hand. President still do not trust me, I do not want to role play Qiandingwanzhu smashed. I teased him too much nervous. He sternly said, this script not easy. Author drama that she (he) specifically written for others, plays very well, we do not live up to the drama Author's some effort and let down. I did not notice who is the drama Author. Opened the title page, was shocked to read Professor Wang Shaowei, and a strange name - such as soup laugh.
Almost exit, I saw the Leahy statement. He suffered against the pillar side, hands across their chests, always silent look. I conceal his excitement, he was carried away to dance can not help but to proceed in the broom, trying to call his response, he finally saw in the corner of the stage curtain from the dark purple cloth sticking out of my head, smiled and beckoned to me. I desperately waving respond, fearing to miss any communication. However, when you see the plate with a bun, wearing a plain coat of Professor Wang came to him, I was shocked to realize that their wrong gesture. In fact, he Bu Zengjian me, smiling and waving is not toward me.
Looking at a pair of lopsided back, I grabbed the curtain hand and tighten gradually sinking heart dull. That moment I stubbornly determined that they must as rumors said, teachers and students love.
Six
Goodbye Leahy made in the beginning of the school sophomore. September school film week, every day a different movie staged.
I say there is no interest in watching the movie? In the thick of it yet, "Shahram witch" Give Leahy made, I made the invitation. He and I never actually have some time to meet and contact me, I once thought to let go of his obsession, only to see the photograph of "Twilight" poster stands outside in the lobby, I was right again so easily remembered his . But he did hint rejected me, he said I about someone else, next time.
That day I'm doing trance chaos. Therefore, when someone in the dark in front of someone asked me, pointing, that is not Leahy made? Moment I reaction, however, stayed stunned for a moment and understand ask, Who? Leahy made ah. Beside him is not the professor? When the screen is dark out, I covered the light slips down the moment he was forced to recognize the face side. Is her.
I fell more deeply chaotic state. Finish, when mixed with the crowd panicked, I was driven to distraction kick Ta doors, roll down. I feel a sharp thing scratched forehead, I heard someone screaming, her blood, her head! I heard the words in Leahy said Fang Zitian, you get up, you get hurt!
Oh yes. I was hurt, but far more than my head?
Seven
He said that what you say?
Leahy made in visiting a rainy day, I say I love you in my body like these mud-like build-up has been unable to distraction out of the word. He actually asked me, What do you say? I had secretly wet his throat to say it again. People are not going into a despair will know how to fight? Such as survival, such as love.
He Weicu nice eyebrows, stare me like that as in the past. Then carried away, not now.
I took a fruit thrown at him he brought and what not now? Like a person to sub-periods it? Is not to wait for you with the professor before the break since I like you?
Perhaps Leahy did not think I would have made such a big response. Long time, he looked down on the stick in the crimson shirt grape juice, raising his hand to gently sweep the sweep, then looked up lightly, not what you think.
He later stopped at the door, he said, I like you, but not now.
Eight
Since that fall injuries to heal me, seemed to experience a rebirth reincarnation, I like a different person, unlike the past like madness, a daily walk in the classroom alone dormitory dining hall, began willing silence, began to stay away from him.
In the teaching building of the elevator once met him. I clearly see his eyes light up, want to call me. Too many people, separates each other, he constantly stretched look over, I always Dishou, do not want to have any eyes with his touch.
He later stepped out of the elevator with me, call, Fang Zaitian. I like a frightened animal, actually leading the way to the surrounding panic, but always walking around in circles. He grabbed my hand and said how do you?
Me how?
My wounds have been meandering from the right forehead to the eyebrows, so some scars that I was unable to release the feelings of an outlet. It is a glass blowing crack, fortunately hurt eyes, but a full twelve sewing needles, recovered after they came to a general wounds such as ferns, unusual grim horror. I had to opt for the bangs combed down, can people still be frightened. I'm not afraid of too frightened him? Of course, even the day he was standing in the doorway to say I like you, or should I say, I think I was a bad head down, just talking nonsense, please Mo seriously.
He said I looked for you a few times.
I know that. He passed his classmates find me, call me, send a text message to me, in the online message to me. Twists and turns, all the same word, I need some time to sort out.
Yet. He and the professor about gossip is still prevalent. This is his finishing results?
I do not know where the strength came, and I throw him a hand, and said to tell you that day is not very clear yet?
He did not pay attention to my words. He held my right forehead gaze, look deep and unpredictable. I realize I have been talking to him in the face. That road hideous scars on my constantly tremble with emotion, the frequently exposed. It certainly scared him!
I turned and fled.
Nine
Sophomore year abnormal hot summer, but in the air plenty of subway completely forgot sinister sun outside. But the crowd around dress or clear reminded me, in fact, this is a really hot summer. Therefore, in the sight of that abnormal white face, I still can not escape.
Leahy made, and Professor Wang on the subway. I distinguished face, he still wound up like a lingering nightmare. God pushing and shoving ghosts, I actually secretly followed them turned twice subway, on the bus trip, the last in the outskirts of the cemetery of the car.
They come worship.
So many do not survive in this world of people from all sides, with a past life has been cold smiles, quietly looking at this world for me. Panic turned lost lost when impressively hit Professor Wang. She said I know you're coming for a long time with it. I abnormal embarrassed, she was like a see through my worries, she said Leahy made something to go, and he did not know you come.
Ten
Xu is the resistance, I do not see what our similarities. But she still insists that you like. First saw you, there is such a feeling.
Leahy made think so, right?
I suddenly remembered they had the same wink inquiry me. I had to peel the layers just to find that they can give them the familiar comfort of soul and spirit.
Unfortunately I am not that person. Not the man he once loved. She had pain of love is not that person. Yin and yang, the two separated and they are not that person. I can not give what they want continuity and rebirth.
That frame is set in front of the marble funerary, belonging to a 19-year-old fallen life. She is the daughter of Professor Wang is made Leahy's girlfriend, is that they think with my likeness hilarious woman.
Eleven
Leahy words and things about her, in conjunction with Professor Wang learned the car back on the road.
Leahy first met Tang Yan laughed case in Guangdong and Hong Kong high school fencing exchange meeting. Even if the dress wrapped tightly, her light was from a tip and an elegant retreat into a gurgle between gushed. When she was out of his sword, unknowingly walked God. Later, she suddenly stopped, remove surface protective gear, not the state accusing him unceremoniously. She sowed thin face angrily said, you clearly in a perfunctory me! She held up the sword to the next row seat in coach protested, prompting the crowd laughter. He did not argue, just straight at her, slumped in silence. Until he took off his goggles, she knew, he turned out to be a man. Glaucoma with abnormal white and glowing skin. She was amazed, ah a cry, pointing at him loudly, Edward Cullen. He smiled, hi, Bella Swan.
They did not fencing in that year's exchange will achieve any significant progress. Flowers and young are busy in love. After the exchange, he could not bear her, even with her sword team back to Guangzhou, and told her to go home. Two villain children different mouth in unison, we are serious way, then Baba looked at her mother, it seems only to be an elder nodded approval, they can be steady.
Each week he sat over Hong Kong and Guangdong, Guangzhou dating her train, rain or shine. She often took him to her mother's college play, take him to see her mother choreographed drama, and seriously Road, I read into the drama club after going to college, do heroine, my favorite drama this was "Shahram witch "and also take him to the campus Film Week screenings of the film, she wanted to say good terms with her mother, but she is busy.
At university, they also chose her mother taught university. She accidentally get the job, but still very happy, because he was admitted. She said that no matter what, we can always meet up later. Subsequently embarked on a planned trip to Thailand.
When the political situation in Thailand has stimulated fluctuations. Airport paralyzed, unable to return. They stranded in Bangkok for a few days and had to turn to Chiang Mai boarding. Incident in Bangkok to Chiang Mai on the highway and hit a truck. Thud, immediately fell into a loss to know the world. He woke up when they were told she died. His long time in silence, most of the day before slowly revealed a, You were kidding, right?
I vaguely remember such a thing. When the 18:30 news was not any fluctuations in heart, and never thought was crying in front of the camera Yanlian men met in the future will be with me, and acquaintances.
We have the original somewhere so tortuous implicated.
I know you've been misunderstood I told him. He was a good man, always stay with me, afraid I depression into the illness. He likes you, I see. To the point about the transition time for him, do not misunderstand him. Respectively, when Professor Wang Tao. Far away, she has recovered head on me, the last drama you play well, thank you. Screenplay is actually laughing as written, I just made a late modification. The Greek words about me to see it, he said you can put the role play live.
Twelve
Junior year, Leahy made application to return Minato College School. I sent him on the train. Then the New Year Spring Festival approaching, the station is not far from the Flower Market. He actually went to buy a big bouquet of flowers sent me. Handed my hand, he said Happy New Year, all wishes come true. I return, you a Happy New Year, out of peace. He smiled and said, thank you. He looked at me, still is to explore the vision, I understand frankly. He always thought I did not know he and Tom laughed as things, that access to safe simply as a courtesy.
A very lively bunch of flowers, gladiolus, peach, chrysanthemum, Yin Liu, Cymbidium, throng a large bundle, than I am a huge, covered my farewell with his hand raised and his face streaming tears, and all the unspeakable sadness.
We do not together.
I know Tom laughed as always lie in front of us insurmountable gap. All along he had not explained the opening "I like you, but not now", "I need some time to sort out," is derived from always make him laugh like soup can not let go, not so I have been misunderstood Professor Wang . He was not fit her, did not dare to touch even mentioned. Reluctantly let me misunderstanding.
He had tried to wipe away Tang laugh at me like a shadow to like me Fangzai Tian. Very hard, but could not. I know that he still glimpsed from the corner of my eye brow familiar lingering shadow. That day, he stepped off classrooms stopped dealings with me that he has said, we are not friends more suitable? I actually care about you ...... it. I do not want to ignore so we'll go. Sincere tone, attitude control. I can not opening speech, only huh should Road, nodded, then nodded, nodding ......
Yes, in fact we are only suitable for friends. We eventually went to the farthest road to a friend's dog this paragraph.
Thirteen
Students sent photos to me. She asked, before you knew Leahy made of it? You see a photo of a few years ago is probably the way oh. Although the heart has to prepare, open to see when, or was she - the way Tom laughed as deterrent. Anyway hilarious to resist, and I still can not ignore the fact that her amazing likeness. To my dismay, she was the right forehead faint trace of Ethics crack healing. Enlarge look, turned out to be a right forehead between the eyebrows to the scars! Actually come to such a match point, a twist of fate is how cruel and banter.
Summer, the "Twilight" sequel release. I saw him, he suddenly turned to look back on the big screen, goes green cold porcelain white face startled me physically and mentally, that took the old time tunnel. Friend pointed at me, surprised and said, why not wear your hat? You are cold do?
No, no, I just miss one person only.
